Testimony of Disraeli Abubakar Pacuno
Disraeli or “DZ” was born in Jolo, Sulu and baptized as a Muslim. Growing up in Ilocos, his cousin awakened his homosexual tendencies. “I felt attracted and we had sexual encounters beginning age 7 until 19 years old,” says DZ. His cousin also exposed him to porn. As a result, it fed his mind and fueled his desire to go deeper into a homosexual lifestyle.
I’m “in love” with my cousin
While studying in a Christian school, DZ continued his sexual relationship with his cousin. It grew into a romantic relationship that lasted for 12 years. He meant the world to him and thought it was real love until his cousin ended it. DZ’s world crashed. Rebellion and bitterness filled his heart. To fill the void, he met strangers in bars and gay clubs.
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Fame, power, and wealth
“In between my colorful gay lifestyle, I felt the LORD’s presence, He never left my side,” said DZ. He saw this through the many people God inspired to invite him to go to church or attend a Bible study. Although he obliged at some point, DZ ignored God’s call because he knew it also meant leaving things he enjoys doing.
Life was good for DZ and at 36 years old, he was elected as the Municipal Mayor of his town. With money, clout, and influence, he can move around to sleep with men he wants. Be it casual or wild sex, DZ was enjoying the gay lifestyle he thought would last forever.
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The world suddenly stopped. DZ first lost his beloved parents. Then he lost his bid for a second term as Ilocos Mayor. There was so much political shaming that his past hounded him with shame. “I lost power, money, and fair-weather friends that came with it.” The final blow was when DZ’s brother had a car accident and was in critical condition. “I give up!” DZ cried to the Lord. Clearly, it was a wake-up call.
In the midst of depression, DZ knelt and shouted LORD NOT AGAIN!. “I’ve lost my parents already and I beg you to spare my brother. In exchange, I promised to give up my gay lifestyle and live for you,” his heart cried in desperation.
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“Homosexuality wasn’t my thing anymore”
DZ surrendered his life to Christ. Just as Jesus promised to those who believe. The Holy Spirit took his life and God began to transform him from the inside out. DZ first let go of smoking. Then, he abandoned heavy drinking and pornography. “Although I remained attracted to men, I made a conscious decision to turn away from having sex with other men,” DZ admitted.
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It wasn’t easy, but DZ knew the things he needed to change. He stopped going to places where temptation lies. He chose his friends and made new ones who will help him be closer to God. DZ also joined a small group at CCF. His “D-Group” became his second family where he felt real and unconditionally love. More importantly, his soul was nurtured and his mind grounded in God’s word.
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“I still get attracted to men but no longer to lust but to see that they are God’s beautiful creation. I am not perfect and will always be a work in progress in this world, but Christ has perfected me in God’s eyes,” DZ said. Homosexuality was no longer his identity. More importantly, DZ knows Jesus will never forsake or leave him. (Hebrews 13:5)
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Praying and helping the sick
In 2016, his D-Group leader convinced him to join a “gay support group.” Soon, he found himself leading a small group of like-minded Christians and they began to grow. They meet each week and from time to time gathers to visits the San Lazaro Hospital. They pray intentionally for patients suffering from HIV or AIDS.
Initially, it wasn’t easy for DZ to involve himself this way. Inspired by loving others through good deeds, he prayed and the Lord revealed many things. The verse in Hebrews 10:24 spoke to him. “Let us be concerned about one another in order to promote love and good works.“
“but my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus, the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.”
Bearing fruits and miracles!
“We started with one person and soon found ourselves praying and sharing what we have with other patients. Most of them were desperate, unloved, and abandoned by their own family.” Interestingly, DZ has also seen many terminally ill patients recover miraculously. Although some prayers seem unheard, most of the patients experienced hope and the joy of forgiveness and love. Many of those they shared the gospel with eventually joined the support group as well.
As a ministry partner of John15.Rocks School Club, DZ and his group has led HIV/AIDS campaigns in school clubs. Although he is not infected with the virus, he’s able to let others know the terrible consequences of HIV. DZ refers to his past as self-centered years of “fake happiness.” Although he used to be a town Mayor, today, he is an “ambassador of heaven,” a servant of the King of Kings and he has no intentions of going back to his old self.
Disraeli on the SOGIE Bill
We asked DZ about the SOGIE Bill. He said, “Whether the bill makes it or not, the book of Revelation speaks of dark times when such will happen. The days are evil and it’s harvest time. As a Soldier of Christ, it’s an opportunity to share Jesus. To the church, now is the time to go and make disciples!”
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you where ever you go.”