Why I don’t miss my gay lifestyle

Testimony of Disraeli Abubakar Pacuno, from Mayor to Ambassador of Christ

Disraeli or “DZ” was born in Jolo, Sulu, and baptized as a Muslim. Growing up in Ilocos, his cousin awakened his gay tendencies. “I felt attracted, and we had sexual encounters beginning age seven until 19 years old,” says DZ.

His cousin also exposed him to porn. As a result, it fed his mind that fueled his desire to go deeper into a gay lifestyle.

I’m “in love” with my cousin

While studying in a Christian school, DZ continued his sexual relationship with his cousin. It grew into a romantic relationship that lasted for 12 years. He meant the world to him and thought it was real love until his cousin ended it.

DZ’s world crashed. Rebellion and bitterness filled his heart. To fill the void, he met strangers in bars and gay clubs.


Fame, power, and wealth

Disraeli said, “In between my colorful gay lifestyle, I felt the LORD’s presence, He never left my side.” Although he obliged church invitations, DZ ignored God’s call because he knew it also meant leaving things he enjoys doing.

Life was good for DZ, and at 36 years old, he was an elected Municipal Mayor of his town. With money, clout, and influence, he can move around to sleep with the men he wants. Be it casual or wild sex, DZ was enjoying the gay lifestyle he thought would last forever.


Tragedy strikes home

Suddenly, the world of DZ stopped. First, DZ lost his parents. Then he lost his bid for a second term as Ilocos Mayor. Political shaming hounded him. “I lost power, money, and fair-weather friends that came with it,” he said.

The final blow was when DZ’s brother had a car accident. Critical, DZ said, “I give up!.” DZ cried to the Lord and surrendered everything.


“Homosexuality wasn’t my thing anymore”

DZ gave his life to Christ. The Holy Spirit began to transform his heart. He first let go of smoking. Then, he abandoned heavy drinking and pornography. “Although I remained attracted to men, I made a conscious decision to turn away from having sex with other men,” DZ admitted.


He stopped going to places of temptations. Instead, he grounded himself in God’s word daily. He chose his friends and made new ones who helped him with his walk with Christ.

DZ also joined a small group at CCF. His “D-Group” became his second family, where he felt real and unconditionally love.


Same-sex attraction

I still get attracted to men and look at them as God’s beautiful creation. I will always be a work in progress, but Christ has perfected me in God’s eyes,” DZ said. Homosexuality was no longer his identity. More importantly, DZ knows Jesus will never forsake or leave him. (Hebrews 13:5)


DZ Pacuno on the right with Darwin Chong on the left and transgender Estephen Mark at the center at DOH, 2018.


Praying and helping the sick

In 2016, his D-Group leader convinced him to join a “gay support group.” Soon, he found himself leading a small group of like-minded Christians. They meet each week and also visits the San Lazaro Hospital, where they pray for patients who have HIV or AIDS.

Hebrews 10:24
“Let us be concerned about one another to promote love and good works.”

DZ with other volunteers visiting and praying for the sick. Most of them were disowned and abandoned by their family. Many have sought solace in their unconditional love and friendship.

Bearing fruits and miracles!

We started with one person and soon found ourselves praying and sharing what we have with other patients. Most of them were desperate, unloved, and abandoned by their own family.” Interestingly, DZ has also seen many terminally ill patients recover miraculously.

Although some prayers seem unheard, most of the patients experienced hope and the joy of forgiveness and love. Many of those they shared the gospel with eventually joined the support group as well.

Acts 20:24
“but my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus, the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.”

Sino Ako?

As a ministry partner of J15 School Club, his group has led HIV/AIDS campaigns in school clubs. Although he is not infected with the virus, he’s able to warn others about HIV. DZ refers to his past as “fake happiness.”

Although he used to be a town Mayor, today, he is an ambassador of heaven.

DZ Pacuno in an HIV campaign seminar, John15 Rocks School Club in Pasay, 2019.

Disraeli on the SOGIE Bill

We asked DZ about the SOGIE Bill. He said, “The book of Revelation speaks of dark times when such will happen. As a Soldier of Christ, it’s an opportunity to share Jesus. Now is the time to go and make disciples!”

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you where ever you go.

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